Only 4 short weeks until you make your Grand Entrance!
8 weeks earlier, 8 weeks tinier, 8 weeks longer we have to love and hold you.
I am ever so sorry that this journey has not been what we both wanted and needed. Filled with worry and stress, Not exactly the Joy and Excitement I had invisioned for my last pregnancy.
I’m devastated for you that your first few months of life will be so different to what they should have been. I’m frightened that you will be ripped out before your ready. I’m heartbroken that mummy can’t keep you safe for longer. I’m saddened by the fact that I will have to leave you at the hospital. I’m terrified that I may not see you for a week. I’m scared that I won’t be there when you need me the most. I can’t comprehend the fact someone else will be watching over you 24/7 when it should be me. I’m confused as to why this is happening now. I am worried that my decisions will impact you forever.
My heart aches for you baby bird.
I’m sorry for so many things and I hope that you can forgive me one day.
But above all my fears I am most of all OVERJOYED that you will be a part of our beautiful family.
I have to do this to make sure I am here to see you and your brother and sister live a bright and happy future.
I dream about you every night, your little fingers, your tiny toes, your chubby cheeks, your button nose, I even see some fuzzy hairs on your noggin’. You are strong and healthy and come home just in time for Easter!
Baby bird you reassure me daily that you are strong (you pack a mean kick), strong enough to overcome anything thrown your way.
You are ready.
Mummy and daddy are ready.
Bro and sissy are ready.
We love you baby bird and can’t wait to love and hold you tight
See you in 4 weeks
Love Your Gutsy Mummy xxx